what?

(breath out, closes eyes)
[humbled.]

you deserve it just as much as we do. and you, and you, and you (x70)

but seriously though.....
these 5 years should not come down to this.
this one thing.

it's 5 years of laughs, memories, tears, good times, bad times, deadlines, 5am's, classes, being crazy.

5 years full of everything that i will miss.
and it's coming down to that.

and as our days together go from double to single digits, i fully expect to shed a few tears. call me a girl. i don't really care about that.

it's too important.
and, dammit, i will miss.....everything about these past years.

keep on keepin on

just today, amid the chaos and insanity of finishing thesis, i grabbed a meal.

rarely do i eat at taco johns, but i felt like a childhood standby: a place that defined much of my elementary and highschool out-to-eat experiences.
also, a place that i went with my parents just a few weeks ago.

so, there i was within the confines of tj's by myself, grilled chicken burrito in hand.

when i noticed the couple next to me:
silence.

not one word throughout their entire meal.
sure, some people could look at this as "whoa, bad relationship."

but i found it.....beautiful?
the beauty of the silence between two people.
i feel that much of a relationship, romantic or otherwise, lies in what is not said.

the comfort of silence between two.

that is all.
now, please, pray or whatever, that i may finish this shit, get a damn degree, and be released into the wild.

dempseys

i swear i'll do my best to comply.
tell me, am i right to think that there could be nothing better?

wait.....what are we talking about here?
shit.
missed timelines.
unmatching timelines.

in 2 situations.
damn.
who couldn't this happen....2 years ago?
1 year ago.

just not a month before i leave fargo.
leave for probably forever.


i'll be your winter coat, buttoned and zipped straight to the throat
with the collar up
so you won't catch a cold.
i want to take you far
from the cynics in this town.

we'll cut our bodies free from the tethers of this scene
start a brand new colony
there everything will change.
we'll give ourselves new names.
identities erased.
the sun will heat the ground
under our bare feet.
in this brand new colony.


also, we'll see if i get my thesis done.

too, i miss my coffee dates with jenny c.
may you love england just a little bit more "!"